मेरी रुसवाई कर के नाख़ुश हैं,
उनके चेहरे की सियाही ये है,
मेरे होने से ख़फ़ा हैं कुछ लोग,
मेरे होने की गवाही ये है.

Chuk Chuk Gaadi....

Last night I took a train rendezvous from Point A to Point B in a Super fast train... And By God...Super fast it was( no pun intended here)
The problem is we are so used to Indian railways and it's snail pace, the rickety sounds, the clamouring and clamping of steel bolts and various other metal pieces, the unabashed shaking of the entire cabin, the dirt inside...the once in 2 months washed kambals with yellowish white bedsheet duly packed in brown paper with a pungent smelling and already used half torn towels that we are so proudly provided..... That we just can't seem to take in any change anymore! I have been a witness to the enigma for umpteen years now.... And have always known the railways in India to be like that! I mean why should I expect anything more/ else!!

Coming back to first things first.....

A new View to Life...

Its been a while that i have been wishing to write about this.... and as usual i have been a lil' too tied up this December....

Only the paucity of time and me running multiple errands and and business deals has kept me away from this space... but am back and have lots to share...

I went under the knife to get rid of my specs...something that i had always wanted to do since the day i got my first pair of specs! Yes...like everybody...i too was very exited when i got my first number.... but soon....very soon it became more of an irritant...an absolute necessity to my existence.... the more i hated it and found myself restricted...it became a part of me!

It restricted my movements....my swimming laps and freedom to do different strokes....my cricket.... my tennis....my fitness plans....everything! I had mist on my glasses during summers and rains.... and i can go on and on...
Waking up in the mornings i had to scramble for my glasses....fidget with my bedside clock or mobile to check the time.... since i could'nt see far or locate the clock.... being myopic is definitely not a plus!

So much so that i hating the knife all my life...i hated my specs even more! This is despite the fact the everybody i know says that i look more presentable/socially acceptable/ (i read: Tolerable) wearing specs! but let me assure you...hardly anyone would understand how much i loathed them!

So i took the plunge on the fateful evening on 21st November'15 and life has been a swift wisp of fresh air every second.... i feel more alive....more free...and most importantly....Alive!
there is so much that i want to write/express and share but i suppose somethings are better felt... no words can actually explain what/how i feel....

tsk...tsk...

I dont pay attention to the world ending....

It has ended for me many times.....
   and began again in the morning!!

Collage..

I have just renovated my abode and was in the process of selecting some pictures of a collage for a specific wall, from my journey till now...
While going through so many of them i realized the length i have travelled...it amazes me... made so many beautiful memories and so many not so beautiful ones! Yet each ones has been an addition to my being.
Infact I realized that M has been there with me like a pillar of support and strength throughout...She has been my smile... through thick and thin. If it hadn't been for her, I would have been deranged and run away to London for ever... I just cant thank her enuff and now when we are finally on our way to completing our family..... a solitaire isn't enough to express my love to her. O God..how do i tell her that its only M that I seek for the rest of my being and re-births!

I love you M :)

Of Friends....New and Old..

I have had the luck of having some great friends in my life journey....friends who have loved me and stood by my...thick and thin...
Friends from Nursery days...to school days to junior college....senior college....Grad and Post Grad... professional and otherwise plain acquaintances.... i have had been fortunate to had friends all along!....and have remained in touch till today with most of them.... they have made my journey worthwhile and beautiful....and i have learned something from each one of them! Someday if i can spare the time..i will like to describe each one of them and their attribute that i love the most....
but its about the ones i lost touch along this journey that i feel sad about....Though i made some new friends i also lost a lot of them in time...sometimes it was time issues...sometimes ego...sometimes each others marriage and sometimes the word i hate most..."Space"....and the wierdest...sometimes it was just 'needed'...Can u beat that!...and i was like ..huh? and i was like ..Dude we are friends ...and not some aphrodisiac drug..which is needed!
The other day i had some 'Me-time'...it was raining...and i drifted back in time to this particular friend that i hung around a lot....which made me write this post!
I guess its just that i am in my thirties and maturity has finally started to creep in...yes its scary...i am at my best when i am whacky and unpredictable and non-practical....and in that flash of listening to no-reason...How i wish i could talk to my best friend....sometimes.....once a week...month...quarter....!

Hell i should stop watching stupid bollywood movies!

The Inevitable...

Painfully, he changed "is" to "was"

Jinx..

And the Monday jinx continues......hah....so much for the horoscope i read in TOI everyday!

American Diaries#1

The countdown has begun.....#Dream Vacation #Vegas#Bahamas#Cruise# Stingray#Fingers Crossed...... Buri nazar waale tera mu kaala!!

The Land of Dreams...

#America #DreamVacation#Cruise#Bahamas#Miami#Orlando#NewYork!

Life Directions...

Set your own course in life: “We cannot direct the wind, but we can adjust the sails.”

You...

"And I'd choose you; in a hundred lifetimes, in a hundred worlds, in any version of reality, I'd find you and I'd choose you.”

Kashmakash...

अजीब कशमकश थी, कि जान किसको दे ,
वो भी आ बैठे थे, और मौत भी…..!!

Mere bina...

चलते रहेंगे क़ाफ़िले मेरे बग़ैर भी यहाँ.
एक तारा टूट जाने से, फ़लक़ सूना नहीं होता।।

Imperfect Love...

And in my own imperfect way, I loved her.

Us...

I had to untangle "us."

Chaand...

"चाँद क़िस्से तुम्हारे सुनाता रहा ,
और ख़्यालों की बस्ती भी रोशन रही..!"
                                                      (अनाम)

Of Holiday Shopping..

Misej is shopping...
Me paying the bills..... guess what?.....
            Nothing changes!

Jeet...

युद्ध में जीत इस बात से नहीं तय की जाती कि आप जीते या हारे,बल्कि इस बात से तय की जाती है कि गोली आपने सीने पे खाई या पीठ पे...

Bheedh

दर्द की बारिशों में हम अकेले ही थे,
जब बरसी ख़ुशियाँ  न जाने भीड़ कहां से आ गयी..

Fakira.....

मैं फकीरों से भी सौदा करता हूँ अक्सर जो एक रुपये में लाख दुआएं देता है..

Tum...

"मत बताओ कि कब घर से निकलोगे तुम ,
चाँद छुप जायेगा हम समझ जायेगें...!"

Noor....

रात हुई है चाँद ज़मीं पर हौले-हौले उतरा है
तुम भी आ जाते तो सारा नूर मुकम्मल हो जाता!!

कश्मकश...

कश्मकश............मेरे इस दिलो-जहां में है,
मैं इश्क़ में हूँ....या ये सारा जहां खूबसूरत है..!!

Parting is such a sweet sorrow...

लगता था उनसे बिछडेंगे तो मर जाएेंगे...
कमाल का वहम था,
कमबखत 'बुखार तक नहीं आया'...m

Adab se...

कुछ और भी जज़्बातों को.....
बेताब किया उसने.....
आज मेहंदी वाले हाथो से....
आदाब किया उसने..!!!

Teer....

"Ek parinda abhi udaan mein hai
Teer har shakhs ki kamaan mein hai"

Dard.....

ज़ख़्म दे कर ना पुछा करो, दर्द की शिद्दत....
"दर्द तो दर्द" होता हैं, थोड़ा क्या, ज्यादा क्या..

Main...

"मेरे होने से ख़फ़ा हैं कुछ लोग,
  मेरे होने की गवाही ये है....!"

Zindagi

सब कुछ हासिल नहीं होता
ज़िन्दगी में यहाँ
किसी का "काश"
तो किसी का "अगर" छूट ही जाता है.

Crappy Women

Every inch of my body wants to insult you but then a woman as crass as you will take it as a compliment.

Pyaas....

तेरे हाथ से मेरे होंठ तक, वो ही इन्तिज़ार की प्यास थी
मेरे नाम की जो शराब थी, कहीं रास्ते में छलक गयी।

Mast....

मस्त आँखों मे वो सुरूर कहाँ जो बोतल मे मचलती शराब मे है !

Manzil...

सीढ़ियाँ उन्हें मबारक हो जिन्हें केवल छत तक जाना है,
मेरी मंजिल तो आसमान है और वहां तक का रास्ता मुझे खुद बनाना है !

Of people & their insecurity...

I hate rigid, narrow-minded, insecure people and I hate it even more if they are around me.

Me...

Fancy...
Footloose...
Free...
and yes....Fit....!!

Darakht...

Safar toh Maine kiya tha
Warna toh saare saazo samaan uske the.

Main toh sirf raazdaar tha uska
Warna toh saare raaz uske the...

Woh darya mein pyasa baitha tha
Jabki samander tamaam uske the...

Yu toh bazaari logon mein Maine riksh baata tha
Lekin darparda saare haat uske the...

Woh dhoop mein baitha hai chau dene ko
Jabki darashta saare saayedar uske the...

Aur ye toh kamaal bulandi baza kar samjhe the
Ki ye toh saare kamaal uske the...

Daastan...

Tumhaari aur meri daastan main fark bas itna hai..
Mujhe marna nahi aaya....Tumhe jeena nahi aaya...

Ye Raat...

"मुझ में और शमा में होती थी बात शबभर,
आज की रात बचेंगें तो सहर देखेगें"

Felling hot hot hot...

Difficult to comprehend whether am feeling baked or roasted in this heat!!

Can anybody help me answer this?

Jet Lagged

A 14 day European sojourn, Jet-setting across half the globe between 3 countries and 5 cities in 30 hours!! A delayed flight and a forced stay in Gulf, terribly jet lagged and mind numb, doesn't deter me to report to work on a Saturday!!
Talk about Focus & commitment.
I soooo wanna crash into my bed, hug my son and doze off.

Europe Extravaganza

Europe calling # Spain# Ibiza # Mediterranean Cruise # The Royal Caribian # France # Italy# hurray!! # sad and worried# araddhya # Love

Dushman...

दुश्मन  के  खेमे  में  चल  रही  थी  मेरे  क़त्ल  की  साजिश,
मैं  पहुंचा  तो  बोले  "यार  तेरी  उम्र  बहुत  लम्बी  है.

Irritable....

Highly irritable and rapidly losing patience.... In fact am running low on temper already!!
If only these nutcases had some brains.....somewhere....... Aaaaarrrgggggghhhhhhh
At least with blondes you expect this....not with Top level, highly paid, hair greying Managers!

2 States..

As much as I love the book, i loved the movie too, which BTW, RARELY happens.

Its Never a one way street and Rome was'nt built in a day or even Not just by waiting!

Happy the way things are and the way it worked out to be in the End...

As Metallica : "In the END it doesnt even matter"  :)  

What truly matters is the am content, happy and full of love and life, living my dream with my dream partner!

Will...

It WILL be difficult...

It WILL take time...

It WILL require sacrifice...

It WILL be worth it.

Soft

'Mann se hai Mulayam' is such an understatement, I thought .... Till I heard his uncannily natural thought on the most dreaded crime derived out of machoism, a man's ultimate ego boost, an absolute proof of his being a man!
Ironically though, the man itself in question has the jingle as ' Mann se hai Mulayam, par Irade loha hai'!! Hahaha you bet! At his age even his wit is soft!
Makes us wonder though, how did he sire a son with a crooked nose!
Mr soft not only is soft from his mann but also tann, in his last attempt at political salvation, he is trying to prove nonchalantly that even his 'erade' on crime is soft! That's a No Brainer from the supremo of a party known for its goons...

Thought...

The best revenge is to move on, get over it, and continue to succeed...

Never give someone the satisfaction of watching you suffer...

                                                                               (Read somewhere-Anon)

Crippled Law...

The entire law system is in shambles... No infra, no empathy, only plain routine. The sad part though is no road-map for future.
This country is surely going to the dumps.
Utter misuse of the power entrusted on the few chosen men.

Power , hence should never be centered.

Oblivion

Before you slip into unconsciousness
I'd like to have another kiss
Another flashing chance at bliss
Another kiss, another kiss.....

                          - Jim Morrison

Happy and more...

Curved lips... :)

The Lover's Dictionary #3

"If this continues, if this goes on....
then when I die...your memories will be my greatest accomplishment.
Your memories will be my most lasting impressions"

The Lover's Dictionary #2

-"I want my own books to have their own shelves,'' you said,
and that's how I knew it would be okay to live together.''

:)

Inspired

Just one of those gritty movies which leaves you awe-inspired and wanting to do more...to achieve that almost daunting milestone that are cradled on the deeper bowels of your innerself.....
To rally not go down...even if fightting.....there is only ONE opetion ...TO WIN!!

As I say it Aaveg: Against All Odds!!

Am so motivated..!! :)

 

The Lover's Dictionary #1

Just could NOT stop myself from writing/saving this on my "Wall" :)
                                                                  By David Levithan


-"You know, I'd get a tattoo with your name on it. Only, I want you to have the freedom to change your name if you want to."

Love Actually!!!

Its been quite sometime that I had wanted to write this.....

I have never seen/heard of anybody who is so selfless in loving as Mudita!
The complete devotion and her always keeping the larger picture before self is what sweeps me off the floors umpteen times in a day!

She breaks her back every single day...from caring for every individual of the family...to working efficiently in office everyday with me...despite having truck loads of work..and yet finding time for friendly banter (Read: Gossip!!)  and lovingly raising Araddhya to a complete sweetheart........she is indeed a True Woman!!....just as well as Femina puts it....A mother, a wife, a passionate lover, a devoted daughter-in-law, a chachi, a great companion, a true friend, an avid daily soap watcher [who laughs and cries with the character], the way she takes care of small things, the way she moisturizes my back, the perfect blend of coffee in my shake, the exact amount of space i want, the way she cribbed for her LV Bag, the grin she had after blackmailing me into buying her one!, the elation she has on me launching some new car every quarter, the wait that she has for 'our' Dream car, her hope for a nearing vacation, her addiction for White wine...the list can go on and on and on endlessly.

I am hopelessly in love with her smile and hope that it stays that way, and hope the reason behind it is ME!
Love you Biwi :)

Body Scribbles..

OUCH!!

Its been a month and a half since I got my first body ink.....

AND ofcourse....now i want to be inked more and more![Quite a cliche I must admit, have heard this a zillion times from a zillion tattoo's!]

Its an initial of My Father's & Mother's Name AND My wife and Son's name all clubbed into one!
All this is set inside a King Solomon's Ring, for the desi junta it looks quite like a nautical star!

This also happens to be my Business group's Logo!

My son loves it and wants to kiss it every day and cutely says..."Papa ka Star"
                                     ....Awwww, how do i tell him that HE IS MY STAR!! :)

Lucky at 30!

Hahaha....Some people re-define the meaning of age old one liners to the T!
Pretty amusing indeed!
Lest one knows whats in store next! :)

My latest One liner!

It doesn't matter if the glass if half empty of half full...
There is clearly room for more wine!

Awesome Mausam

Its been an amazing roller coaster ride this November!!
The theme for this Festive season "Get Set Grow"  has indeed been successful...yes there are a few things that need to be ironed out and perfected but there has been much more takeaways than grumpings!!
Yippppeeeee!! and kudos to my Team!

Take Two: Novemeber'12
Diwali is here....and before it is over.....Am off to the Land of the Rising Sun....where a brighter future awaits me....and upon return am really looking forward to the month end and will end it with a bang! :) with sooo many parties.
God willing.....will be off the Zulu Land next!! :)
Life....am loving it!! :)
Sweet November.......INDEED!!

Upcoming

Body Scribbles
Of Courts & more
The Fall....

Loose...

My lesson of the day was to Never let any words lie loose...do not pre-assume things about anybody,anything or anywhere especially while dealing professionally, and so dont make any statements about it/them...after all, you don't know who will use it ....when and how!
Hope this is a lesson well learnt & remembered too!

Manesar, Mayhem & Fallout!

I would keep it rather simple here, its rather tough to deal with labour and the issues that comes with them...but if you think of it, it is even more difficult to deal/punish/sensitize/reprimand/promote/negotiate...or do anything with the Top management...especially when they behave like irrational school boys!

Wisdom's Here...Atlast!

Seearing with pain..and on his staple diet of daily pain killers,he wonders whether it is actually so wise to be wise afterall? Wisdom, is what he wished for so long...and wisdom it is that he now detests... He misses the sublime innocence in everything....the innocence in his non-chalant behaviour...his love...his laughter...his smile...his sizing up his friends/foes/acquaints....everything! Who said growing up is fun!

The Biiiiiiig "F"

There never seems to be enuff!!

Stupor..

He doesnot want to do anything stupid in his present state with an overdose,
Yes he does feel like Jim Morrison currently,
And cares lesser for the World than his senses...
Until am back...

My bundle of JOY :)

My heart is filed with immense warmth...I take a satisfied breadth...am grinning ear to ear...when he flies into my arms,whenevr i return home after a hard days work,
reciting it again and again and again as if its his favorite word..."Papa"
He is the most doting child I ever knew...the apple of my eye...my muse he is...my happiness...the reason I love Life.
I love you son. Muah.

Shift...

It is indeed nice to see that we are taking a quantam shift...especially from where we were some 5 years ago to the present. The memories will remain with us...they may not be as intact or clear...and fade away with the wisp of time...but lets hope that the good ones are remembered for a longer duration...and the best way to do so is by believe in who you are and not wanting to be somebody else.....besides this ....TRUST. Not evrybody in this world is bad. Our thinking and the dilemma at that time influences us in so....so fly out or rather reach out than accuse.
Life is SHORT!! Love it.

Seek

I seek an eternal answer to the turmoil.
I wish the eternal sunshine falls upon me and engulfs me...
I seek solace and a good nights sleep.
enuff said. Now i need a bar of snickers!

Dearth..

Is there really a dearth of good manpower....is it actually at ALL levels..Top to Bottom! If this is true..arnt we hypocrates when we say that there is shortage of jobs! Whay cant we find deligent, hard working, honest people!
I wish I had a placement agency!

Gutted...

Just the space to vent out my anger..my disapporval for all things said today!
I have been a rebel always! and today is no different......
I am absolutely disgusted ...and loathe this.
Why should I feel low,unwanted and not suitable all the time...day in and day out. Its really not funny..unless u r deriving some sort of satanic pleasure out of making somebody fell like this.
Watch ur back..Retribution is what I AM good at!!

Gutted...

Just the space to vent out my anger..my disapproval for all things said today!

Aarambh...

Aarambh hai prachand bol mastakon ke jhund
aaj jung ki ghadi ki tum guhaar do
aan baan shaan ya ki jaan ka ho daan aaj
ik dhanush ke baan pe utaar do
aarambh hai prachand...

Mann kare so praan de,
Jo mann kare so praan le
wahi toh ek sarvshaktimaan hai
vishv ki pukaar hai yeh bhaagwat ka saar hai
ki yuddh hi veer ka pramaan hai
kauravo ki bheed ho ya, paandavo ka keedh ho
jo lad saka hai woh hi toh mahaan hai

jit ki hawas nahi, kisi pe koyi vash nahi
kya jindagi hai thokaro pe maar do
maut ant hai nahi toh maut se bhi kyun dare
jaake aasmaan mein dahaad do
aarambh hai prachand bol mastakon ke jhund
aaj jung ki ghadi ki tum guhaar do
aan baan shaan ya ki jaan ka ho daan aaj
ik dhanush ke baan pe utaar do
aarambh hai prachand

woh daya ka bhaav ya ki shaurya ka chunaav
ya ki haar ka woh ghaanv tum yeh soch lo
yaa ki pure bhaal par jala rahe vijay ka laal
laal yeh gullal tum soch lo
rang kesari ho ya mridang kesari ho
ya ki kesari ho taal tum yeh soch lo

jis kavi ki kalpana mein jindagi ho prem geet
uss kavi ko aaj tum nakaar do
bhigati maso mein aaj, phulati ragon mein aaj
jo aag ki lapat ka tum bakhaar do
aarambh hai prachand bol mastakon ke jhund
aaj jung ki ghadi ki tum guhaar do
aan baan shaan ya ki jaan ka ho daan aaj
ik dhanush ke baan pe utaar do
aarambh hai prachand -

Contemplate.....

Its difficult to choose between the mind and the heart especially when they are saying rather opposite things...!

A Chilly Winter & Sunday Afternoon....

"Yesterday when i was lonely sitting writing some notes,
i felt a breeze passing through the net of my hairs,
i felt as if it whishpered something in my ears,
which i cudnt recall although i tried alot....
i closed my eyz for a min,
i saw a picture of a face in my eyes,
in search for that i opened my eyes,
but i was unable to see anyone arround

in the garden while moving through soft grasses,
i felt as if someone i smoving my side,
touching my shoulders,holding my hands,
but when i wanted to find:who was it
i wa sunable to find him.

yesterday when i was lonely sitting.
a breeze moved trough my ears
shaking my ear rings....
which madea sweet soft note of love,
i felt as if u have shaken my ear rings,
as it was moving with so much pleasure,
kissing my cheeks,


then when i stopped writing...
i understood itz my dream,
thats want to hold ur picture
itz my imagination,
thats want to imagine u and only u
itz my feelings,
thats want to feel ur touch.......

A call long overdue..

I have not been able to stop smiling since yesterday now...its just that something happened that made me forget my back spasm(Read: Slip Disc)
There is this certain somebody I knew from my school days and we hadnt been talking or sms..ing since a decade now...but an accidental hi on a facebbok took some gathering alongwith some catch up msgs and here I was talking on the phone bcoz apparantly Talking is better than chatting!! ;)
It was great catching up n clearing up the differences n for a rare time I wasnt angry or upset at myself either!! WOW!!
Infact it was gr8. I suppose I have just leant how to forgive n forget and seek the same!!
Just wanted to say..that i still adore you...
NA YOU ROCK!!

For you...Abhishek ;)

I thank God sent you to me,
For you and I were meant to be.
We have a bond too strong to break,
We have a love no one can take.

In you, I have found a love so true,
My heart is filled with love for you.
Every time I see you, my heart skips a beat,
You make my life whole, you make my life complete.


My love for you grows more with each passing day,
The thought of your gorgeous face takes my breath away:
Those brown eyes fill my soul with happiness,
Those luscious lips I love to kiss.


The day when I become your wife,
Will be the happiest day of my life.
Even thinking of that day makes me smile,
I can't wait 'till I walk down that aisle.


I dream of that day when we'll both say, I do
For always and forever... I will love you.

Answer this.....

Risk toh Spiderman ko bhi lena padta hai..!! ;)

Lets c are u going to take a risk this time...? eh....

Any answers??

Feelings...

When Feelings Fail
In a garden of flowers
I see u every morning,
your move so soft
careful not to hurt anybody

It is you oh passing WIND
whom I've cherished all my life,
as will always.

It would be difficult
to start a morning
without feeling u by my side;
that would be a day, I guess,
When my feelings fail to feel

The 99 Club..

A very apt article depicting the rat race that all of us are involved in our Day to day life. Please read and if you happen to be a member of this 'elite Club, then quit this club today itself and give an opportunity for Happiness and peace of mind to enter your life. It is really worth a try.

Once upon a time, there lived a King who, despite his luxurious lifestyle, was neither happy nor content..

One day, the King came upon a servant who was singing happily while he worked. This fascinated the King; why was he, the Supreme Ruler of the Land, unhappy and gloomy, while a lowly servant had so much joy. The King asked the servant, 'Why are you so happy?'

The man replied, 'Your Majesty, I am nothing but a servant, but my family and I don't need too much - just a roof over our heads and warm food to fill our tummies.'

The king was not satisfied with that reply. Later in the day, he sought the advice of his most trusted advisor.

After hearing the King's woes and the servant's' story, the advisor said, 'Your Majesty, I believe that the servant Has not been made part of The 99 Club.'

'The 99 Club? And what exactly is that?' the King inquired.

The advisor replied, 'Your Majesty, to truly know what The 99 Club is, place 99 Gold coins in a bag and leave it at this servant's doorstep.'

When the servant saw the bag, he took it into his house. When he opened the bag, he let out a great shout of joy... So many gold coins!

He began to count them. After several counts, he was at last convinced that there were 99 coins. He wondered, 'What could've happened to that last gold coin? Surely, no one would leave 99 coins!' He looked everywhere he could, but that final coin was elusive. Finally, exhausted he decided that he was going to have to work harder than ever to earn that gold coin and complete his collection.

From that day, the servant's life was changed. He was overworked, horribly grumpy, and castigated his family for not helping him make that 100th gold coin. He stopped singing while he worked.

Witnessing this drastic transformation, the King was puzzled. When he sought his advisor's help, the advisor said, 'Your Majesty, the servant has now officially joined The 99 Club..'

He continued, 'The 99 Club is a name given to those people who have enough To be happy but are never contented, because they're always yearning and Striving for that extra 1 saying to themselves: 'Let me get that one final thing and then I will be happy for life.'

We can be happy, even with very little in our lives, but the minute we're given something bigger and better, we want even more! We lose our sleep, our happiness, we hurt the people around us; all these as a price for our growing needs and desires.

That's the 99 club.

LIFE ROCKS!!

Last month, I read of a guy selling his life - his name and identity, his possessions and his personal quirks, all rolled into one - on ebay. Alfie James, a collegue, decided to do the same, though I am not sure if he would actually do it, in spirit atleast. The idea in his case wasn't to make a quick buck but to try and appreciate what your life holds, everything good about being you that you dont necessarily realise till you put it down in black and white.

So I did. I am a great one for lists anyway. But even I the eternal optimist was staggered by all I've got to be kicked about in my life - work, friends, travel, family, even relationships that did not work outbut were great while they lasted. Not to mention some of my very personal quirks that I realised define me in many ways, like my paranoia about answering unknown numbers on my cell, my inability to take a bite of chocolate - I have to have the entire bar, whtever the size - and my fondness of all things black, be they cars, clothes or moods!I went through my list again, struck that I dont want to be anyone but me, not because I am perfect but because being imperfect doesnt mean being unhappy. Sure I have issues - impatience, procrastination, laziness. But I have more that tips the other side of the scale.
thats why life is all about looking good and feeling even better.

Hell, the point is, I realised that no matter what's going on in my life, its SIMPLY GREAT to be ME!!;)

My fav line...

Before you slip into unconciousness, I'd like to have another kiss, another flashing chance at bliss, another kiss, another kiss.

Summer Coolers!!

Hey guys..

Its been quite some time since I wrote last...its just that lots has been happening on virtually all fronts.. and then this summer's has been different from the earlier one's as we all know, pretty nice to me too : here's how:

I got stuck in this traffic jam and had to take a new route from the village side..I did have my doubts as I thought my vehicle would get stuck! But as I turned out it was quite an adventure..Imagine the muddy village roads...drizzling rain...n a Honda Civic in the midst of a village bypass...nobody around,just animals on the road...tractors and green lands...no trees on both sides and no street light! No directions and nobody to give directions either.. so I had to figure it out myself!!WooHoooo!! The village beauty was breathtaking..n it was one of the best experiences I ever had!

Getting wet in the first monsoon rain! I love to feel the rain drops hitting my body n a chill runs down my spine with every drop! I love to feel the raindrops hitting my face(minus my specs ofcourse!) n drizzling down my neck...

Dancing in the summer rain with a dozen friends and their wifes!;) It was crazy! n wild n most amusing jig tht we ever did!

Getting to know tht some ppl look upto me! phew! that was heavy! but nice.;)

Friends place: A dozen friends...nice music(rock)..dim lights..liquor chocolates...liqour too... suddenly a a love songs..and all the couples get up n start their own Ball-Dance! Nice n romantic.

A gr8 spa: A gr8 head Massage...n the receptionist hitting on you!! Now thats what you call an icing on the cake!

Home: Everybody calling you up all the time for information/guidance etc. etc. Bugging sumtimes...but I love all the attention. Am glad.

5 couples: All working out together....n taking a splash!and I get to teach swimming too...(grins)..Its so nice.. am glad I have such friends. U rock guys!

I hope this continues...;)

Beautiful..

This is one of the best lines I came across..incidently its also one of my Fav movies..


"LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL"





*Conditions Apply.

ME: Goal Keeper??

I have been gripped with the Soccer mania off late..watching UEFA and incidently even coming across movies on it on various muvi channels to my surprise(not tht I dont love it!!...I DO I DO..ABSOLUTELY!!;)..tht, btw, is in addition to talking(n arguing n fighting abt Club Rivalry with my Londoner friends!!)...following it like a religion rite now with UEFA in its last leg...
I was watching my fav. team MAN UTD. playing against one of the other teams when I realised this...
Being a good person is like being a goal keeper...
No matter how many goals we save,
People will remember only the ones that you missed!!;)

The Dream..

The dream I had today was so so much like reality...so much like the wonderful past...was as if I was right there...as if it all happened...again...!! was so magical!! If only I could hold on to it...for ever!!!

Quote Unquote..

"We are what we repeatedly do. Excellence,therefore,is not an act but a habit."
Aristotle.

Hum Pune kyon Aaye Sanam??

A tribute to my frenz and my time spent in Puna!!
Imagine this...
4 friends...mild rain...4 cups of hot coffee!!
100 bucks of petrol2 rusty n dusty old bikes and an Open road...to Khadakvasla!!
4 mugs and 1 internet messenger!
3 friends...1 Old Monk(We love Mohan Meakins for it!!;)..and Saturday Night...
1 girl..i number..4 friends..and a fight!!
Maggi Noodles, A hostel room...4.25.a.m
1 PL..1 night..1 book..8 duffers
4 friends..4 separate cities..4 coffee cups n a reunion after 3 years!!
4 friends..1 telling long stories..1 cutting the infamous "LOVE Is.." cut-outs..1 reading Penthouses...Other busy in Ghapla Accounting/Chain Smoking!!

To be completed..!!

Joys...

As I held My bundle of joy in my hand...a shudder ran down my spine...a feeling tht is beyond the words..beyond anything I can ever write...I had a smile on my face which I can never forget...there were butterflies in my stomach...Gawd am so happy...so elated...am topsy-turvy..and am Top of the world...Welcome little one.... Luv u soooooooooooo much...muah!;)

A Brand New Year!!

Hey guys..H N Y. Like all the previous years..this year too it was rocking!! n it Still is..make no mistake....
I just love this time of the year...its cold...but has a lot of warmth all around!!
Here are some of the things that I love during my fav season..WINTERS!!
I love the winter breeze on my face..
I love the hot cups of coffee that I sip thru the day..
I love the business formals that I dress everyday in..
I love cracking peanuts... n munching them..
I love the warm smiles..
I love the constant banter of the kids around me..
I love the Hot hot paranthas that are cooked at home..
I love the eggs..both half fry n smashed!!..
I love the cozy feel that my bed gives..
I love the glow tht I suddenly have on my face..
I love the new HOPE tht each New Year brings...the desire to grow...the passion to succeed and the killer instinct to be the best..
I love the white mist on the road..the frost on my car...and the hope (especially wishiing n praying to God) tht it snows this Year!!(grins)...reminds me of my time in London!!
Luv u Mom..
Luv u DaD..
Luv my family..
Luv u My Best Half.
..Am so glad to have u in my life!!;)

My Fav....??

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
but I know

So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
and nothing else matters!!

An Action packed Fortnight!!

It was an amazing fortnight guys....was busy like its been all life....n there was Happiness galore all around me....seemed like a perfect world!
- It started with an OSO Theme Party...it was awesome with dancers..hmm...u know what I am talking about! n I was dressed to KILL!!(grins)
- I met up with so many people and networked with quite a few!
- It was gr8 to have so many relatives around with so much energy that it made every moment spent worthwhile. I really cherished it.
- The function went off really well...had a blast each nite...
- V is really really happy!! Looked Handsome in each function!Adored him!
- I seemed to have picked up this line, an old saying, from a recent movi.."Badi shiddat se maine tumhe paane ki koshish ki hai....Ki har zarre ne mujhe tumse milane ki saazish ki hai"!! In English ..If u really want something, the whole world conspires for u to get it!! I somehow really like it since the time I read it...for me it has a meaning....Nothing can come in between If U REALLY want something more than yourself..a selfless craving more than your life...!! Sadly its not the case always..n u end up meeting ungrateful ppl in life!
- Moving on,I noticed that there has been quite a remarkable change in me...I noticed it during this wedding.....I have started LIKING KIDS!!;) OMG, whats wrong with me!!Holy Shit!!I cant believe I said it of all the people!! People who know me would know!
- One more strange thing, suddenly everybody I meet, I know or I come across... seems to be getting hooked up!! from my neighbours..to friends..to family friends..people I am not in touch with..even people i HATE!! i have quite a list here!

Guys..I am not as gud in writing as some of the other ones on the net....but all I wanted to share was what I felt during this fortnight...the criss-crossing of thoughts..the constant turmoil...the umpteen hope...strengthening bonds...and re-connecting with family! It was a dream run..and am glad it happened..it has brought out a different person in me...one whose Happy and Content!!Aptly said "I feel like the King of the world"!!;)

My BEST Half......Mudita ;)

My Bundle of joy...
My better half

You are my sanity..
And at times; insanity

Everything changes with time,
Even the sun doesnt shine forever

People come and go,Change..
Life is created and destroyed

But you defy the unpredictability of it all,
The most stable and wonderous thing in life..
The most amazing person I will ever know ;)

What you feel is what you are,
And what you are is beautiful.

I Love You!!

The Amazing Week that It was..... ;)

I had an absolutely amazing entire week..probably the first entire nice week in my life for a real long time!! It was purrfect...full of lotsa fun n to top it all...I have the icing on the cake too!!! Here are some of the things i want to share with you all...
- I had a very gud opening at the export fair, got orders as well as enquiries!!Yay!
- I had a buyer praising me!! yippee.....
- Lotsa fun n parties with friends and family
- My Diwali card parties have started too....WOW!!
- Met up with this real close friend on mine after ages..n we painted Delhi green!!
- Lots of 'Gud News' for the family!!;)
- We partied till 4 in the morning...got talli too!!:) [Machan has superb food]
- Starbucks tastes the same everytime: Fantabulous!!
- The love story of M n R is so cute!! am sooooo happy for both of them!!
- S is amazing..she's s lot of fun to b with!
- Moet's has a very warm n cozy interior, loooove it.
- Now, the icing on the cake... I GOT A 9k JOB OFFER!!!! yahoooooooooooo ;)
I wish i have many more weeks like these...am keeping my fingers crossed!!

My Bheja Fried!! ;)

To my FREINDS Wife without whose help/narration this could not have bin completed in HALF TIME!! ;)

The 'feel-happy' medicine!!

Wife and I are cruising. I am at the wheel. Wife is giving instructions. She is also reacting rather personally to each potential road crisis as if all of it is my making.

"Maybe you should get a driver," wife says. " You look nervous driving." Your instructions and hyperventions dont help either, I want to say, but dont. " I am nervous," I agree. I realise we are always in agreement when there is a negative judgement about me. "No one observes rules in this city," I add, staring at two young girls in tights. One of them is wearing a pair of hipsters cut so low, they might have been stockings. Maybe they are stockings. And she is just a very hopeful person.

"You shouldnt be staring at girls," wife says. What else am I to do in a traffic jam, I want to ask, but dont. Has she got nothing better to do than watch what I am watching?? Cant a man just lust? "The traffic here is not good for my cholestrol," I say. "You need to drink less," wife says. It occurs to me she has a solution for all my crisis and all of them seem to involve my sacrificing one pleasure or another. "Lets go to my homeopath," wife says. "He is also a counsellor. You need a counsellor."
" I dont know about that," I say.
" I do. Lets please go to the counsellor now. You are always stressed and this guy is really good."
"All right then,lets go," I say.

The homeopath welcomes us into his cabin on the mezzanine floor. We sit, and I see him exchanging knowing glances with wife. Maybe this is a set-up? "So you feel stressed?" The homeopath asks me.
"Yes"
"Has he any fears?" the homeopath asks wife. Maybe he thinks she is my mother?. "So many fears," wife sighs, looking at me." What are your fears?" the homeopath asks me. " I fear someting bad is going to happen any time," I say. "Hmm," the homeopath says and nods his head at wife. "Anxiety neurosis," he says. Wife smiles at him in understanding. Naturally, her synpathies are with the homeopath. "What else?" the homeopath asks. "You feel people are out to get you?"
"All the time."
"Paranoia," the homeopath whispers, as if that was the name of a very close friend who recently died. "Does he shout at home?" he asks wife. Wife nods. "Only when I cant find my underwear in the cupboard," I say.
The homeopath looks at wife. I am hoping the homeopath will hold her responsible for the missing briefs, but nothing of that sort transpires. Wife smiles at him. Homeopath smiles back. "Is he impatient?"
"Is he impatient!" wife says. "He is Mr. Jhut-Put Chowdhary. He is very very impatient. The most impatient man I know,in fact."
"Only when I am in a hurry," I say. "I am always having too many things to do." Thats sounds weak even to me.
"Hmm," the homeopath says."Is he confident?" he asks wife. Hello, I am here, but never mind me, I feel like saying,but dont.
"He seems to be on the face of it,but I am not too sure,"wife says helpfully."Yes, ofcourse,you never know, it could be all an act," the homeopath says.
Maybe you two should get married,I feel like saying,but I dont. "I am pretty cool with people," I say. "Hmm," the homeopath says. "Isnt he a writer or something?" he asks wife. She nods.
"I came across something you wrote the other day.Sad and confused,it struck me. Why do you write sad stuff?"
"Not sad.Just truth and irony."
"All negative stuff,really.Why do you feel so negative,huh?"
I was hoping you would figure that out for me."
"Hmm," the homeopath says.
"Write happy stuff.Feel happy stuff.Talk happy stuff,okay? I have got some really good medicine here for you. Take it regularly and you will feel happy."
"If I feel too happy,I might stop writing,you know?"
"Never mind," wife says.
She says it as if no one would miss it if I stopped writing."Ofcourse I mind," I say. "Time to choose between writing and happiness," the homeopath says, handing me a bottle of medicine and a measuring glass. "And between family and writing as well," wife says. Such choices, I want to say,but dont.
we get into the car. I am at the wheel. wife is giving instructions.

Its All BLACK!! ;)

If people can be colour,I'm black for sure, and not just because I wear the colour to the exclusion of everything else. Black isnt just a colour, its a state of mind,a personality quirk,a mood; black is wicked,mysterious,enigmatic,intense; it is classic,stylish,chic; it is versatile and unpredictable; it is great standalone, and equally perfect combined with something else; it has drama and spunk; it has layers and textures; basically, ans as you can clearly tell, I'm in love with black.
But there's loads of black beyond style; whether you're talking black moods, or the dard side of ourselves. Much as I lust after black, its not all feelgood. it also denotes Death!! An End! However I dont mean it only in the negative sense...afterall death can be beautiful too..but either way it signifies an end from where there is no return. the colour is somwhat akin to the forbidden fruit-irresistible. Its a bit scary but you cant help finding out more about it. Anything black evokes a very satiable curiosity in me.
There's a saying as we all know "Black is beautiful"..it is!! At night, when the serene black cloaks the sky with a sprinking of glittering stars, thats the time that black looks utmost beautiful!! I simply adore and love the beaches when the surroundings are velvety-black, with the dark waves lapping at the shores and the palm trees swaying away to glory...the sound they make that time is simply amazing.

(PS: The reason am all so exited about black is..I have a black theme party tonite.. secondly I just bought this fab shirt!!);)

The Indian Superhero Cult!!

Everyone loves a hero.While we are on the look out for presidents to save our country, moviebiz found two new superheroes. one is fantasy, the other is phantasmagoric. Sivaji and Spider-Man.Rajnikant and Tobey maguire have gone where no men have gone before. Their antics have slayed the box office. So what keep ur brains at home. Two strangely attired men, one from South of the Vindhyas, the other from across the seven seas save the world. One says that with absolute power comes absolute responsibility. The other says, "To hell with being responsible,I'm going to bust the gust of baddies." Essentailly, both Spider-Man and Sivaji are trying to work their own belief systems in a world gone terribly wrong. One wears a mask and spins a web. The other changes 56 costumes, romances a girl 30 years his junior and packs a mean punch.
Both are travesties of the conventional hero. one's a weakling, the other's dark-skinned. Both considered anathemas as far as traditional film-making goes. But both Sivaji and Spider-Man 3 hit the right buttons. Because, at the end of the day, they are just trying to mske sense out of all the nonsense around them. Spider-Man faces high-tech villians, saves kids, Sivaji goes through orgiastic prances with the girls, sticks chewing gum on his forehead and tosses a coin like only he can. Call it burleque, absurd or corny. It works and that's the bottomline.
So when it rains it pours. As far as trade guessmates go, Spidey has netted record crores and Sivagi raked in the three-figure-mark in the first 14 days of their release. Not bad for ordinary men who became extraordinary through their cinematic deeds. And at the end of the day, both Sivaji and Spider-Man are bang on the buck. You feel empowered when you come out of the multiplex. Suspend belief. Like the Adidas ad,"impossible is nothing!"
Truly, we can achieve the impossible. Deewaar is now part of the latest NCERT textbook for class VII. Forget the furore, the point is it was used as an example to teach children the value of dignity. Remember the famous dialogue from Deewaar, "Main phenke hue paise nahin uthata?"
ABji disarms us all with his disarming candour(some call it mock modesty). Forget the naysayers, its just learning the importance of commom courtesies we middle class people share, especially calling back on missed calls!! and replies back to msgs.!!
Thats that then. Get wet, soak in the rain, turn the pages of a crisp newspaper on a rainy morning...whatever you do, have fun and try to save the world while you are at it....plant trees this monsoon. Succinctly put,enjoy!!

In the End...

This one's from LINKIN PARK.... my FAV... ;)

It starts with one thing
I don't know why
It doesn't even matter
how hard you try
keep that in mind
I designed this rhyme
To explain in due time
All I know
Time is a valuable thing
Watch it fly by as the pendulum swings
Watch it count down to the end of the day
The clock ticks life away
It's so unreal Didn't look out below
Watch the time go right out the window
Trying to hold on, but didn't even know
Wasted it all just to watch you go I kept everything inside and even though I tried,
it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memoryof a time when
I TRIED SO HARD AND GOT SO FAR
BUT IN THE END IT DOES'NT EVEN MATTER
I HAD TO FALL
TO LOSE IT
ALL BUT IN THE END It DOES'NT EVEN MATTER
One thing, I don't know why
It doesn’t even matter
how hard you try,
keep that in mind I designed this rhyme,
to explain in due time
I tried so hard
In spite of the way you were mocking me
Acting like I was part of your property
Remembering all the times you fought with me
I'M SURPRISED IT GOT SO FAR(far)
Things aren't the way they were before
You wouldn't even recognize me anymore
Not that you knew me back then
But it all comes back to me (in the end)
You kept everything inside and even though I tried,
it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when I tried so hard
I’ve put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
And for all this
There's only one thing you should know
THAT IN THE END IT DOESNT EVEN MATTER!!
^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^

Now thats the summation of a gr8 gr8 song!! LIFE"S a BITCH..or ARE THERE BITCHES IN ONE'S LIFE???
I LEAVE U WITH THIS>>>to PONDER upon N LISTEN to the song once again!!;)

The Adrenalin Hunt!!

The first time I enrolled in a gym was many years ago, when they were freshly rolling out the virtues of workouts and I was a fresh Class 12th passout n a merit holder!! one florid magazine likened the post-work out phase to juicy cup cakes...I love cup cakes so I signed up with this place on top of my fav Non-veg haunt!! Thats PLAIN Coincidence! Ofcourse I have long abandoned the magazine. It was never about cup cakes.
The day I walked in, the instructor, a beefy n tough looking man, was barking at this slim structure on the bench press machine "C'mon, 1-2-3 push. 4-5-6 push. U wanna b like me? I'm 40 going on 30."
Okay, this convinced me some more, even though I was left when everyone was right. Thoroughly directionally challenged, I thought, but what the heck, I liked the idea, 40-going-on-30. I went through the motions: Stretches for 5 mins, step aerobics for 15 mins, cycling for 10 mins, treadmill for 15 and then I waited. I waited for that famous rush of endorphins to grab me and spirit me away...Instead of which, I could feel my legs giving way beneath me.
Tottering back home, every inch of of my body ached. Cup cakes my foot. I believed a truck ramming into me might have done a better job. I might feel better in a while, I convinced myself. Perhaps the adrenalin in my body was in a state of shock, not used to the gym and all that. Once home, I lay flat on the bed and slept like a baby.
Since then, I have been researching the highs of adrenalin like a maniac. Sometimes I've found it and sometimes not. It's with me on the dance floor, but abandons me on the rowing machine. It grabs me when I'm working out with weights but watch it fly when I'm doing step aerobics. And when I'm walking it's with me all the way. it knows what my body wants.
I know what my body wants. It wants an exercise that it can cope up with. It needs a workout that's conducive to my lifestyle, which can be rather sedantry. It needs a gentle fitness regimen. I'm glad I worked it out. I'm glad I work out. I'm glad I'm fit and in shape!!;)

T Pub....

Hmm..so here I am again with my gibberish...actually its bin a really long time since i wrote this one..nevertheless it remains quite close to me since it was my first individual presentation during my MBA days!!!...and then i had always wanted to open a T Pub....so i just wish to bug everybody with it....kindly bear....n just in case you dont...BUZZ OFF...I dont CAre!!!.....neways its for ME ME n ME n not for u guys!! ;)
Here it goes....

We dont cheer the meek..the vulnerable...
those content with their 15 minutes of fame...
We cheer the Bold....and the daring...
for only those who desire to rise above the rest
Catchold of competetion by the scuff of the neck...
and beat the daylights out of it!!
The need of the hour is change.....Speed facsinates...
Living in the fast lane...living life on the edge...
is all of us want....especially job oriented dumb-headed bimbos...
The morons of this world will always tread the slow path.....
We capture imaginations and bring them to LIFE>>>...

Frenz, we take you on a tour to the T Pub....
The T Pub is an authentic haunt for the young...the party savy...the fast-paced...the go-getters... and culturally adventurous...

With an ambience to match the best in the world and different to the point of being wierd...it seeps in your head slowly and gives you a kick like cocaine...
You will charged up and energised...
You will feel the zeel and the fizz of life....
You will feel the pace...
but most of all a driver who knows his speed AND where he is Driving...
OK enuff of this shit....
am signing off......;)