Change...

Things are changing rather quickly in my Life
Much to my liking and dislike too!

Am anxious & paranoid both!

Looking forward with Hope!

CEO

Read it as a random tweet and couldn't stop myself for saving this one here!

The key role of a CEO is to execute. It is, after all, Chief 'executive' officer.

Aadmi...

*शतरंज सी जिन्दगी में कौन किसका मोहरा है,*
*आदमी एक है मगर सबका किरदार दोहरा है।*

CLEAN it Up!

Some required cleaning is finally happening at my work place....

The system is simple..... No more freebies...no misuse and no over-rides...

And there is a method to the madness...

No matter How important you are...You can definitely be Replaced!



 

2018

Quite contrary to my Persona.... I haven't gone out for any Party this year... Am not half drunk..... Or faking to be enjoying the shite music....

I chose to be with Mudita and my kids... Hugging them.... Listening to Romantic numbers.... Over bonfire and mulled wine!

My only regret: Why did I Not do this earlier!

AAAAARRGGGHHH!

Sometimes i feel like pulling my hair.....Literally!!

Yes!!!! The ones on my HEAD ...that is...!

Yaad...

Jab yaad uss kambakht ki ho....
                

                          Ae Dil Hai Mushkil....
                          Ae Dil Hai Mushkil....

Asking for it....

“We’re running the most dangerous experiment in history right now, which is to see how much carbon dioxide the atmosphere can handle before there is an environmental catastrophe.”

Elon Musk

City Maintenance

What baffles me is why are the Municipal Corporations this inefficient??
Yes, there has been a massive population movement towards the Urban centres if each respective State, be it it's State Capital or otherwise....Yet these Municipal Corporations have NOT been preparing for this...
Simple hygiene.... clearing if drainage, picking and Eco friendly disposal of daily waste, roads repair, traffic management especially Parking woes are extremely shabby.
I used to have this notion that the MC and the ruling State Political Party are different and so there is disparity.... Now there is BJP mostly everywhere and though I am a die-hard follower, yet am extremely irritated and unhappy with the situation.

A city like Varanasi has shown no improvement....Same for Lucknow.... Kanpur and the like....

Ban the Plastic!

Recently, I had the opportunity to travel by train in UP....Make no mistake , I have travelled a lot by train...its just that i haven't been able to travel much as of now recently

What I noticed and what brought me to write this blog is CLEANLINESS
Though a lot has been done to achieve this compared to earlier years where we (Indians) did not even care or think of it as necessary.....Yet a lot remains to be achieved

As soon as the train docks out of the platform , you are greeted with a huge amount of filth....mainly plastic!

What was more appalling was the fact that i took a taxi from my Dehradoon to Jolly Grant Airport and it drove us along a river, which had flowing water but instead of rocks on its catchment area all we could see was plastic!

We have absolutely no idea what a world we are going to leave for our younger generation....
We just dont bother.....

It is time to wake up!.....
It is ALREADY late!

India First

Have been thinking of writing about this for quite some time although i want to refrain from Political views but just couldnt...

These are strictly MY views as somebody who has travelled and studied around the entire country and lived in all corners AND Internationally!

In a nutshell, i have some strong views about the situation....especially after the Paris Accord..
This clearly shows that India is on the right path....

I have been a very vocal criticiser of the Governance that we has over the past 50-60 years. The topics that concerned me were mostly on the Environmental  sustainability ... things like Switching to Solar Power from Coal/thermal etc, Water Conservation and Reuse, Air Quality, preventing Wastages, Forests, Hygiene, Cleaning/dredging of Rivers, sewage system,  beaches, Water Bodies, Oceans, Removal or plastics and restricting its usage, Oil wastage during traffic jams, Switching the atleast Hybrid if not fully electrical mode for transport, 100% electric fleet for all Public transport, etc

Railways have a huge consumption of diesel which is quite appalling, as its far more economical to run it on electricity, and this should have been done decades ago... Also it can run on CNG/LNG etc and we should definitely reduce our dependence on imports of fossil fuels.

All cars above 10 or maybe 15 lacs has to be compulsorily be a Hybrid/electric. The logic is simple. this does not effect the common man and a person buying a costly car can afford to pay for a hybrid too. Additionally, the RTO fees should also be substantially higher. This person also enjoys the same cost of fuel as the person driving any other car...Why?

Solar Power has to be made compulsory for all Govt Buildings, PSU's, All Commercial buildings and projects, All Hotels & Guest Houses, Bus Stops, All Airports, All Railways Stations, All Group Housing Projects Both completed, WIP and Upcoming.  No maps should be passed/cleared by the Authority and Completion Certificate given if they do not comply. A heavy fine and House tax/Green Tax to be imposed if the Builder fails to do so under 12 months.
Ditto for Water Harvesting provisions, Recycling via ETP, Use of STP etc.

The Current Govt has indeed started to work on a lot of things and it is quite heartening to see that atleast someone at the top is not only thinking on these but also implementing so many of them. In a county as Big and as diverse as ours it is an immense task. An example is quite liked was: To change India is like turning a 60 bogey train around...its not like taking a simple U-Turn on a cycle! It will take its time.

The Namami Gange Project is a very good thought, tough tried out by several Govt previously, has been a success. It shows the importance of River cleaning, dredging etc, but it also has to focus on the other rivers in India. The Interlinking of all rivers has a huge project and work should begin upon that. There will always be people telling as to why it should'nt be done..... But is has to be in National Interest.

There is so much that can go on ....and i will...whenever possible i will edit/update this....

Untill then...

Learnings from the Last Fiscal

So its the 1st Of April......
Another start to another New Year......
And like all previous years...this year too has some takeaways.....

Focus..... On simpler details is the key
Daily Monitoring of Key parameters... Don't leave it to Staff/GM?CEO or whoever!
Focus on Cost Parameters.... The Earning is the same....Costs have to be within the defined ratio
Daily expenses....if not monitored will lead to pilferage
All ADJ has to be personally monitored
Patience.....

Who??

Where did this line come from??   

" Mazboori ka naam Mahatma Gandhi???"

I mean when?
I mean Why?

Doing my Bit...

The Environment Crusader that i believe that i am ....i believe that i should set an example

I do keep doing my bit...
Trust me...i am finicky.....to the point of being manaical....
i just cant see extra lights switched on...
the tap running uselessly while brushing or soaping up or while bathing....
I cant waste paper...i just 'have to' use it from both sides....as a fair copy or rough and shred it to pieces and use it as small note pad....and then instead of shredding them in dustbin i have an office shredder which then is given away for recycling!
i switch off my vehicle at red lights....

Yes i am CRAZY!

And NO i am NOT a MISER!

I feel responsible for what i do....This gives me immense satisfaction that i haven't burdened this beautiful Earth with my being and try and leave a positive impact and save as much as i can. and i detest it when i see people wasting all these resources irresponsibly.....and i cannot and will not stay quiet when i see such wastage in-front of me. Judge me as much as you want to!

Of Travelling & more...

It's just been crazy travelling since the last 2 months and things are brighter for the next 2 as well...

Started with Post Diwali travel to Moradabad....Followed up with Orchha trip with the Table.... Back again to Moradabad...... Then to Kanpur....

Oops did I Miss Delhi trip at the beginning of February.....

Since I am not a photo freak, you will not find much action on my Social media ...And I prefer to keep it that ways....

Updates coming soon for further Travel...

Resolution 2017

REDESIGN
REBUILD
RECLAIM

IIM Takeaways...

Besides the coveted T-Shirt and the Laptop Bag that I received from the Institution....I had a few takeaways which i would like to pen down...

1) Do a detailed SWOT Analysis of each role that you play.... As a CEO, A father, A son etc
2) Don't expect loyalty...its a give and take contract now!

The Germans....

Give a task to us , we show up on time and finish in the budget.

The world may not love us but they sure do need us as long as we deliver because if we don't , we loose our right to exist and our culture dies with us!

Shitty September!!

This is by far the most challenging month in my career....

Hope time flies....from here on...

Of Arguments....

Had an ugly WhatsApp argument with an acquaintance....
Realized a bit late that I could have avoided it and saved my hustle!
Although she is a batameez daughter of a batameez father...yet I should have kept my cool.

Lesson learnt!
No free lunch or favors for fake friends!

Less UPs ...More Downs....

In less than a week ..I  have gone from Rich to Broke!
From ecstatic to gloomy.....
All the wishes I had to grab the latest gadgets and Rolex etc has suddenly vanish into thin air.... Vaporised!

Fingers crossed.... Badly need to turn the corner!

मेरी रुसवाई कर के नाख़ुश हैं,
उनके चेहरे की सियाही ये है,
मेरे होने से ख़फ़ा हैं कुछ लोग,
मेरे होने की गवाही ये है.

Chuk Chuk Gaadi....

Last night I took a train rendezvous from Point A to Point B in a Super fast train... And By God...Super fast it was( no pun intended here)
The problem is we are so used to Indian railways and it's snail pace, the rickety sounds, the clamouring and clamping of steel bolts and various other metal pieces, the unabashed shaking of the entire cabin, the dirt inside...the once in 2 months washed kambals with yellowish white bedsheet duly packed in brown paper with a pungent smelling and already used half torn towels that we are so proudly provided..... That we just can't seem to take in any change anymore! I have been a witness to the enigma for umpteen years now.... And have always known the railways in India to be like that! I mean why should I expect anything more/ else!!

Coming back to first things first.....

A new View to Life...

Its been a while that i have been wishing to write about this.... and as usual i have been a lil' too tied up this December....

Only the paucity of time and me running multiple errands and and business deals has kept me away from this space... but am back and have lots to share...

I went under the knife to get rid of my specs...something that i had always wanted to do since the day i got my first pair of specs! Yes...like everybody...i too was very exited when i got my first number.... but soon....very soon it became more of an irritant...an absolute necessity to my existence.... the more i hated it and found myself restricted...it became a part of me!

It restricted my movements....my swimming laps and freedom to do different strokes....my cricket.... my tennis....my fitness plans....everything! I had mist on my glasses during summers and rains.... and i can go on and on...
Waking up in the mornings i had to scramble for my glasses....fidget with my bedside clock or mobile to check the time.... since i could'nt see far or locate the clock.... being myopic is definitely not a plus!

So much so that i hating the knife all my life...i hated my specs even more! This is despite the fact the everybody i know says that i look more presentable/socially acceptable/ (i read: Tolerable) wearing specs! but let me assure you...hardly anyone would understand how much i loathed them!

So i took the plunge on the fateful evening on 21st November'15 and life has been a swift wisp of fresh air every second.... i feel more alive....more free...and most importantly....Alive!
there is so much that i want to write/express and share but i suppose somethings are better felt... no words can actually explain what/how i feel....

tsk...tsk...

I dont pay attention to the world ending....

It has ended for me many times.....
   and began again in the morning!!

Collage..

I have just renovated my abode and was in the process of selecting some pictures of a collage for a specific wall, from my journey till now...
While going through so many of them i realized the length i have travelled...it amazes me... made so many beautiful memories and so many not so beautiful ones! Yet each ones has been an addition to my being.
Infact I realized that M has been there with me like a pillar of support and strength throughout...She has been my smile... through thick and thin. If it hadn't been for her, I would have been deranged and run away to London for ever... I just cant thank her enuff and now when we are finally on our way to completing our family..... a solitaire isn't enough to express my love to her. O God..how do i tell her that its only M that I seek for the rest of my being and re-births!

I love you M :)

Of Friends....New and Old..

I have had the luck of having some great friends in my life journey....friends who have loved me and stood by my...thick and thin...
Friends from Nursery days...to school days to junior college....senior college....Grad and Post Grad... professional and otherwise plain acquaintances.... i have had been fortunate to had friends all along!....and have remained in touch till today with most of them.... they have made my journey worthwhile and beautiful....and i have learned something from each one of them! Someday if i can spare the time..i will like to describe each one of them and their attribute that i love the most....
but its about the ones i lost touch along this journey that i feel sad about....Though i made some new friends i also lost a lot of them in time...sometimes it was time issues...sometimes ego...sometimes each others marriage and sometimes the word i hate most..."Space"....and the wierdest...sometimes it was just 'needed'...Can u beat that!...and i was like ..huh? and i was like ..Dude we are friends ...and not some aphrodisiac drug..which is needed!
The other day i had some 'Me-time'...it was raining...and i drifted back in time to this particular friend that i hung around a lot....which made me write this post!
I guess its just that i am in my thirties and maturity has finally started to creep in...yes its scary...i am at my best when i am whacky and unpredictable and non-practical....and in that flash of listening to no-reason...How i wish i could talk to my best friend....sometimes.....once a week...month...quarter....!

Hell i should stop watching stupid bollywood movies!

The Inevitable...

Painfully, he changed "is" to "was"

Jinx..

And the Monday jinx continues......hah....so much for the horoscope i read in TOI everyday!

American Diaries#1

The countdown has begun.....#Dream Vacation #Vegas#Bahamas#Cruise# Stingray#Fingers Crossed...... Buri nazar waale tera mu kaala!!

The Land of Dreams...

#America #DreamVacation#Cruise#Bahamas#Miami#Orlando#NewYork!

Life Directions...

Set your own course in life: “We cannot direct the wind, but we can adjust the sails.”

You...

"And I'd choose you; in a hundred lifetimes, in a hundred worlds, in any version of reality, I'd find you and I'd choose you.”

Kashmakash...

अजीब कशमकश थी, कि जान किसको दे ,
वो भी आ बैठे थे, और मौत भी…..!!

Mere bina...

चलते रहेंगे क़ाफ़िले मेरे बग़ैर भी यहाँ.
एक तारा टूट जाने से, फ़लक़ सूना नहीं होता।।

Imperfect Love...

And in my own imperfect way, I loved her.

Us...

I had to untangle "us."

Chaand...

"चाँद क़िस्से तुम्हारे सुनाता रहा ,
और ख़्यालों की बस्ती भी रोशन रही..!"
                                                      (अनाम)

Of Holiday Shopping..

Misej is shopping...
Me paying the bills..... guess what?.....
            Nothing changes!

Jeet...

युद्ध में जीत इस बात से नहीं तय की जाती कि आप जीते या हारे,बल्कि इस बात से तय की जाती है कि गोली आपने सीने पे खाई या पीठ पे...

Bheedh

दर्द की बारिशों में हम अकेले ही थे,
जब बरसी ख़ुशियाँ  न जाने भीड़ कहां से आ गयी..

Fakira.....

मैं फकीरों से भी सौदा करता हूँ अक्सर जो एक रुपये में लाख दुआएं देता है..

Tum...

"मत बताओ कि कब घर से निकलोगे तुम ,
चाँद छुप जायेगा हम समझ जायेगें...!"

Noor....

रात हुई है चाँद ज़मीं पर हौले-हौले उतरा है
तुम भी आ जाते तो सारा नूर मुकम्मल हो जाता!!

कश्मकश...

कश्मकश............मेरे इस दिलो-जहां में है,
मैं इश्क़ में हूँ....या ये सारा जहां खूबसूरत है..!!

Parting is such a sweet sorrow...

लगता था उनसे बिछडेंगे तो मर जाएेंगे...
कमाल का वहम था,
कमबखत 'बुखार तक नहीं आया'...m

Adab se...

कुछ और भी जज़्बातों को.....
बेताब किया उसने.....
आज मेहंदी वाले हाथो से....
आदाब किया उसने..!!!

Teer....

"Ek parinda abhi udaan mein hai
Teer har shakhs ki kamaan mein hai"

Dard.....

ज़ख़्म दे कर ना पुछा करो, दर्द की शिद्दत....
"दर्द तो दर्द" होता हैं, थोड़ा क्या, ज्यादा क्या..

Main...

"मेरे होने से ख़फ़ा हैं कुछ लोग,
  मेरे होने की गवाही ये है....!"

Zindagi

सब कुछ हासिल नहीं होता
ज़िन्दगी में यहाँ
किसी का "काश"
तो किसी का "अगर" छूट ही जाता है.

Crappy Women

Every inch of my body wants to insult you but then a woman as crass as you will take it as a compliment.

Pyaas....

तेरे हाथ से मेरे होंठ तक, वो ही इन्तिज़ार की प्यास थी
मेरे नाम की जो शराब थी, कहीं रास्ते में छलक गयी।

Mast....

मस्त आँखों मे वो सुरूर कहाँ जो बोतल मे मचलती शराब मे है !

Manzil...

सीढ़ियाँ उन्हें मबारक हो जिन्हें केवल छत तक जाना है,
मेरी मंजिल तो आसमान है और वहां तक का रास्ता मुझे खुद बनाना है !

Of people & their insecurity...

I hate rigid, narrow-minded, insecure people and I hate it even more if they are around me.

Me...

Fancy...
Footloose...
Free...
and yes....Fit....!!

Darakht...

Safar toh Maine kiya tha
Warna toh saare saazo samaan uske the.

Main toh sirf raazdaar tha uska
Warna toh saare raaz uske the...

Woh darya mein pyasa baitha tha
Jabki samander tamaam uske the...

Yu toh bazaari logon mein Maine riksh baata tha
Lekin darparda saare haat uske the...

Woh dhoop mein baitha hai chau dene ko
Jabki darashta saare saayedar uske the...

Aur ye toh kamaal bulandi baza kar samjhe the
Ki ye toh saare kamaal uske the...

Daastan...

Tumhaari aur meri daastan main fark bas itna hai..
Mujhe marna nahi aaya....Tumhe jeena nahi aaya...

Ye Raat...

"मुझ में और शमा में होती थी बात शबभर,
आज की रात बचेंगें तो सहर देखेगें"

Felling hot hot hot...

Difficult to comprehend whether am feeling baked or roasted in this heat!!

Can anybody help me answer this?

Jet Lagged

A 14 day European sojourn, Jet-setting across half the globe between 3 countries and 5 cities in 30 hours!! A delayed flight and a forced stay in Gulf, terribly jet lagged and mind numb, doesn't deter me to report to work on a Saturday!!
Talk about Focus & commitment.
I soooo wanna crash into my bed, hug my son and doze off.

Europe Extravaganza

Europe calling # Spain# Ibiza # Mediterranean Cruise # The Royal Caribian # France # Italy# hurray!! # sad and worried# araddhya # Love

Dushman...

दुश्मन  के  खेमे  में  चल  रही  थी  मेरे  क़त्ल  की  साजिश,
मैं  पहुंचा  तो  बोले  "यार  तेरी  उम्र  बहुत  लम्बी  है.

Irritable....

Highly irritable and rapidly losing patience.... In fact am running low on temper already!!
If only these nutcases had some brains.....somewhere....... Aaaaarrrgggggghhhhhhh
At least with blondes you expect this....not with Top level, highly paid, hair greying Managers!

2 States..

As much as I love the book, i loved the movie too, which BTW, RARELY happens.

Its Never a one way street and Rome was'nt built in a day or even Not just by waiting!

Happy the way things are and the way it worked out to be in the End...

As Metallica : "In the END it doesnt even matter"  :)  

What truly matters is the am content, happy and full of love and life, living my dream with my dream partner!

Will...

It WILL be difficult...

It WILL take time...

It WILL require sacrifice...

It WILL be worth it.

Soft

'Mann se hai Mulayam' is such an understatement, I thought .... Till I heard his uncannily natural thought on the most dreaded crime derived out of machoism, a man's ultimate ego boost, an absolute proof of his being a man!
Ironically though, the man itself in question has the jingle as ' Mann se hai Mulayam, par Irade loha hai'!! Hahaha you bet! At his age even his wit is soft!
Makes us wonder though, how did he sire a son with a crooked nose!
Mr soft not only is soft from his mann but also tann, in his last attempt at political salvation, he is trying to prove nonchalantly that even his 'erade' on crime is soft! That's a No Brainer from the supremo of a party known for its goons...

Thought...

The best revenge is to move on, get over it, and continue to succeed...

Never give someone the satisfaction of watching you suffer...

                                                                               (Read somewhere-Anon)

Crippled Law...

The entire law system is in shambles... No infra, no empathy, only plain routine. The sad part though is no road-map for future.
This country is surely going to the dumps.
Utter misuse of the power entrusted on the few chosen men.

Power , hence should never be centered.

Oblivion

Before you slip into unconsciousness
I'd like to have another kiss
Another flashing chance at bliss
Another kiss, another kiss.....

                          - Jim Morrison

Happy and more...

Curved lips... :)

The Lover's Dictionary #3

"If this continues, if this goes on....
then when I die...your memories will be my greatest accomplishment.
Your memories will be my most lasting impressions"

The Lover's Dictionary #2

-"I want my own books to have their own shelves,'' you said,
and that's how I knew it would be okay to live together.''

:)

Inspired

Just one of those gritty movies which leaves you awe-inspired and wanting to do more...to achieve that almost daunting milestone that are cradled on the deeper bowels of your innerself.....
To rally not go down...even if fightting.....there is only ONE opetion ...TO WIN!!

As I say it Aaveg: Against All Odds!!

Am so motivated..!! :)

 

The Lover's Dictionary #1

Just could NOT stop myself from writing/saving this on my "Wall" :)
                                                                  By David Levithan


-"You know, I'd get a tattoo with your name on it. Only, I want you to have the freedom to change your name if you want to."

Love Actually!!!

Its been quite sometime that I had wanted to write this.....

I have never seen/heard of anybody who is so selfless in loving as Mudita!
The complete devotion and her always keeping the larger picture before self is what sweeps me off the floors umpteen times in a day!

She breaks her back every single day...from caring for every individual of the family...to working efficiently in office everyday with me...despite having truck loads of work..and yet finding time for friendly banter (Read: Gossip!!)  and lovingly raising Araddhya to a complete sweetheart........she is indeed a True Woman!!....just as well as Femina puts it....A mother, a wife, a passionate lover, a devoted daughter-in-law, a chachi, a great companion, a true friend, an avid daily soap watcher [who laughs and cries with the character], the way she takes care of small things, the way she moisturizes my back, the perfect blend of coffee in my shake, the exact amount of space i want, the way she cribbed for her LV Bag, the grin she had after blackmailing me into buying her one!, the elation she has on me launching some new car every quarter, the wait that she has for 'our' Dream car, her hope for a nearing vacation, her addiction for White wine...the list can go on and on and on endlessly.

I am hopelessly in love with her smile and hope that it stays that way, and hope the reason behind it is ME!
Love you Biwi :)

Body Scribbles..

OUCH!!

Its been a month and a half since I got my first body ink.....

AND ofcourse....now i want to be inked more and more![Quite a cliche I must admit, have heard this a zillion times from a zillion tattoo's!]

Its an initial of My Father's & Mother's Name AND My wife and Son's name all clubbed into one!
All this is set inside a King Solomon's Ring, for the desi junta it looks quite like a nautical star!

This also happens to be my Business group's Logo!

My son loves it and wants to kiss it every day and cutely says..."Papa ka Star"
                                     ....Awwww, how do i tell him that HE IS MY STAR!! :)

Lucky at 30!

Hahaha....Some people re-define the meaning of age old one liners to the T!
Pretty amusing indeed!
Lest one knows whats in store next! :)

My latest One liner!

It doesn't matter if the glass if half empty of half full...
There is clearly room for more wine!

Awesome Mausam

Its been an amazing roller coaster ride this November!!
The theme for this Festive season "Get Set Grow"  has indeed been successful...yes there are a few things that need to be ironed out and perfected but there has been much more takeaways than grumpings!!
Yippppeeeee!! and kudos to my Team!

Take Two: Novemeber'12
Diwali is here....and before it is over.....Am off to the Land of the Rising Sun....where a brighter future awaits me....and upon return am really looking forward to the month end and will end it with a bang! :) with sooo many parties.
God willing.....will be off the Zulu Land next!! :)
Life....am loving it!! :)
Sweet November.......INDEED!!

Upcoming

Body Scribbles
Of Courts & more
The Fall....

Loose...

My lesson of the day was to Never let any words lie loose...do not pre-assume things about anybody,anything or anywhere especially while dealing professionally, and so dont make any statements about it/them...after all, you don't know who will use it ....when and how!
Hope this is a lesson well learnt & remembered too!

Manesar, Mayhem & Fallout!

I would keep it rather simple here, its rather tough to deal with labour and the issues that comes with them...but if you think of it, it is even more difficult to deal/punish/sensitize/reprimand/promote/negotiate...or do anything with the Top management...especially when they behave like irrational school boys!

Wisdom's Here...Atlast!

Seearing with pain..and on his staple diet of daily pain killers,he wonders whether it is actually so wise to be wise afterall? Wisdom, is what he wished for so long...and wisdom it is that he now detests... He misses the sublime innocence in everything....the innocence in his non-chalant behaviour...his love...his laughter...his smile...his sizing up his friends/foes/acquaints....everything! Who said growing up is fun!

The Biiiiiiig "F"

There never seems to be enuff!!

Stupor..

He doesnot want to do anything stupid in his present state with an overdose,
Yes he does feel like Jim Morrison currently,
And cares lesser for the World than his senses...
Until am back...

My bundle of JOY :)

My heart is filed with immense warmth...I take a satisfied breadth...am grinning ear to ear...when he flies into my arms,whenevr i return home after a hard days work,
reciting it again and again and again as if its his favorite word..."Papa"
He is the most doting child I ever knew...the apple of my eye...my muse he is...my happiness...the reason I love Life.
I love you son. Muah.

Shift...

It is indeed nice to see that we are taking a quantam shift...especially from where we were some 5 years ago to the present. The memories will remain with us...they may not be as intact or clear...and fade away with the wisp of time...but lets hope that the good ones are remembered for a longer duration...and the best way to do so is by believe in who you are and not wanting to be somebody else.....besides this ....TRUST. Not evrybody in this world is bad. Our thinking and the dilemma at that time influences us in so....so fly out or rather reach out than accuse.
Life is SHORT!! Love it.

Seek

I seek an eternal answer to the turmoil.
I wish the eternal sunshine falls upon me and engulfs me...
I seek solace and a good nights sleep.
enuff said. Now i need a bar of snickers!

Dearth..

Is there really a dearth of good manpower....is it actually at ALL levels..Top to Bottom! If this is true..arnt we hypocrates when we say that there is shortage of jobs! Whay cant we find deligent, hard working, honest people!
I wish I had a placement agency!

Gutted...

Just the space to vent out my anger..my disapporval for all things said today!
I have been a rebel always! and today is no different......
I am absolutely disgusted ...and loathe this.
Why should I feel low,unwanted and not suitable all the time...day in and day out. Its really not funny..unless u r deriving some sort of satanic pleasure out of making somebody fell like this.
Watch ur back..Retribution is what I AM good at!!

Gutted...

Just the space to vent out my anger..my disapproval for all things said today!

Aarambh...

Aarambh hai prachand bol mastakon ke jhund
aaj jung ki ghadi ki tum guhaar do
aan baan shaan ya ki jaan ka ho daan aaj
ik dhanush ke baan pe utaar do
aarambh hai prachand...

Mann kare so praan de,
Jo mann kare so praan le
wahi toh ek sarvshaktimaan hai
vishv ki pukaar hai yeh bhaagwat ka saar hai
ki yuddh hi veer ka pramaan hai
kauravo ki bheed ho ya, paandavo ka keedh ho
jo lad saka hai woh hi toh mahaan hai

jit ki hawas nahi, kisi pe koyi vash nahi
kya jindagi hai thokaro pe maar do
maut ant hai nahi toh maut se bhi kyun dare
jaake aasmaan mein dahaad do
aarambh hai prachand bol mastakon ke jhund
aaj jung ki ghadi ki tum guhaar do
aan baan shaan ya ki jaan ka ho daan aaj
ik dhanush ke baan pe utaar do
aarambh hai prachand

woh daya ka bhaav ya ki shaurya ka chunaav
ya ki haar ka woh ghaanv tum yeh soch lo
yaa ki pure bhaal par jala rahe vijay ka laal
laal yeh gullal tum soch lo
rang kesari ho ya mridang kesari ho
ya ki kesari ho taal tum yeh soch lo

jis kavi ki kalpana mein jindagi ho prem geet
uss kavi ko aaj tum nakaar do
bhigati maso mein aaj, phulati ragon mein aaj
jo aag ki lapat ka tum bakhaar do
aarambh hai prachand bol mastakon ke jhund
aaj jung ki ghadi ki tum guhaar do
aan baan shaan ya ki jaan ka ho daan aaj
ik dhanush ke baan pe utaar do
aarambh hai prachand -

Contemplate.....

Its difficult to choose between the mind and the heart especially when they are saying rather opposite things...!

A Chilly Winter & Sunday Afternoon....

"Yesterday when i was lonely sitting writing some notes,
i felt a breeze passing through the net of my hairs,
i felt as if it whishpered something in my ears,
which i cudnt recall although i tried alot....
i closed my eyz for a min,
i saw a picture of a face in my eyes,
in search for that i opened my eyes,
but i was unable to see anyone arround

in the garden while moving through soft grasses,
i felt as if someone i smoving my side,
touching my shoulders,holding my hands,
but when i wanted to find:who was it
i wa sunable to find him.

yesterday when i was lonely sitting.
a breeze moved trough my ears
shaking my ear rings....
which madea sweet soft note of love,
i felt as if u have shaken my ear rings,
as it was moving with so much pleasure,
kissing my cheeks,


then when i stopped writing...
i understood itz my dream,
thats want to hold ur picture
itz my imagination,
thats want to imagine u and only u
itz my feelings,
thats want to feel ur touch.......

A call long overdue..

I have not been able to stop smiling since yesterday now...its just that something happened that made me forget my back spasm(Read: Slip Disc)
There is this certain somebody I knew from my school days and we hadnt been talking or sms..ing since a decade now...but an accidental hi on a facebbok took some gathering alongwith some catch up msgs and here I was talking on the phone bcoz apparantly Talking is better than chatting!! ;)
It was great catching up n clearing up the differences n for a rare time I wasnt angry or upset at myself either!! WOW!!
Infact it was gr8. I suppose I have just leant how to forgive n forget and seek the same!!
Just wanted to say..that i still adore you...
NA YOU ROCK!!

For you...Abhishek ;)

I thank God sent you to me,
For you and I were meant to be.
We have a bond too strong to break,
We have a love no one can take.

In you, I have found a love so true,
My heart is filled with love for you.
Every time I see you, my heart skips a beat,
You make my life whole, you make my life complete.


My love for you grows more with each passing day,
The thought of your gorgeous face takes my breath away:
Those brown eyes fill my soul with happiness,
Those luscious lips I love to kiss.


The day when I become your wife,
Will be the happiest day of my life.
Even thinking of that day makes me smile,
I can't wait 'till I walk down that aisle.


I dream of that day when we'll both say, I do
For always and forever... I will love you.

Answer this.....

Risk toh Spiderman ko bhi lena padta hai..!! ;)

Lets c are u going to take a risk this time...? eh....

Any answers??

Feelings...

When Feelings Fail
In a garden of flowers
I see u every morning,
your move so soft
careful not to hurt anybody

It is you oh passing WIND
whom I've cherished all my life,
as will always.

It would be difficult
to start a morning
without feeling u by my side;
that would be a day, I guess,
When my feelings fail to feel