The Adrenalin Hunt!!

The first time I enrolled in a gym was many years ago, when they were freshly rolling out the virtues of workouts and I was a fresh Class 12th passout n a merit holder!! one florid magazine likened the post-work out phase to juicy cup cakes...I love cup cakes so I signed up with this place on top of my fav Non-veg haunt!! Thats PLAIN Coincidence! Ofcourse I have long abandoned the magazine. It was never about cup cakes.
The day I walked in, the instructor, a beefy n tough looking man, was barking at this slim structure on the bench press machine "C'mon, 1-2-3 push. 4-5-6 push. U wanna b like me? I'm 40 going on 30."
Okay, this convinced me some more, even though I was left when everyone was right. Thoroughly directionally challenged, I thought, but what the heck, I liked the idea, 40-going-on-30. I went through the motions: Stretches for 5 mins, step aerobics for 15 mins, cycling for 10 mins, treadmill for 15 and then I waited. I waited for that famous rush of endorphins to grab me and spirit me away...Instead of which, I could feel my legs giving way beneath me.
Tottering back home, every inch of of my body ached. Cup cakes my foot. I believed a truck ramming into me might have done a better job. I might feel better in a while, I convinced myself. Perhaps the adrenalin in my body was in a state of shock, not used to the gym and all that. Once home, I lay flat on the bed and slept like a baby.
Since then, I have been researching the highs of adrenalin like a maniac. Sometimes I've found it and sometimes not. It's with me on the dance floor, but abandons me on the rowing machine. It grabs me when I'm working out with weights but watch it fly when I'm doing step aerobics. And when I'm walking it's with me all the way. it knows what my body wants.
I know what my body wants. It wants an exercise that it can cope up with. It needs a workout that's conducive to my lifestyle, which can be rather sedantry. It needs a gentle fitness regimen. I'm glad I worked it out. I'm glad I work out. I'm glad I'm fit and in shape!!;)

T Pub....

Hmm..so here I am again with my gibberish...actually its bin a really long time since i wrote this one..nevertheless it remains quite close to me since it was my first individual presentation during my MBA days!!!...and then i had always wanted to open a T Pub....so i just wish to bug everybody with it....kindly bear....n just in case you dont...BUZZ OFF...I dont CAre!!!.....neways its for ME ME n ME n not for u guys!! ;)
Here it goes....

We dont cheer the meek..the vulnerable...
those content with their 15 minutes of fame...
We cheer the Bold....and the daring...
for only those who desire to rise above the rest
Catchold of competetion by the scuff of the neck...
and beat the daylights out of it!!
The need of the hour is change.....Speed facsinates...
Living in the fast lane...living life on the edge...
is all of us want....especially job oriented dumb-headed bimbos...
The morons of this world will always tread the slow path.....
We capture imaginations and bring them to LIFE>>>...

Frenz, we take you on a tour to the T Pub....
The T Pub is an authentic haunt for the young...the party savy...the fast-paced...the go-getters... and culturally adventurous...

With an ambience to match the best in the world and different to the point of being wierd...it seeps in your head slowly and gives you a kick like cocaine...
You will charged up and energised...
You will feel the zeel and the fizz of life....
You will feel the pace...
but most of all a driver who knows his speed AND where he is Driving...
OK enuff of this shit....
am signing off......;)

You're Beautiful!!

Look at you...You're beautiful!! Contrary to what your mirror might say...contrary to what that volcanic bump of a dimple/pimple may say...contrary to what that unruly lock of hair that refuses to adhere to any gel of the world might say.
It's that twinkle in your eyes when you smile.... It's the way you look when you turn around...Its that wrinkling in your nose when you are annoyed...It's the way your lips move when you speak...It's the way you glow when you return from a brisk walk.
Everybody has that one particular trait in them that makes them beautiful. That endears them to the beholder, which makes them at that point of time the most beautiful woman in the world(ofcourse thats before you get married!!)...., perfect features be damned!! Afterall, perfection is not the criteria for beauty. Never was. someone who is perfect, has perfect features, perfect hair, perfect everything...loses that one thing that makes them beautiful...IMPERFECTION.

ITS TIME.....

Its time..I believe.....TO FINALLY GET BACK WHAT IS TRULY MINE....WHAT I HAVE LOST OVER THE PAST YEAR...Standing at the Railway Station on that COLD January13th night I realised....Its time I got back my Self Respect...Dignity...Integrity and ofcourse some SENSE!!!! and yes...maybe a couple of frens....[;)]
ITS TIME....TO RECLAIM MY LIFE!!

"I WILL PERSIST UNTIL I SUCCEED...
I WAS NOT DELIVERED INTO THIS WORLD IN DEFEAT...
NOW DOES FAILURE COUSE IN MY VEINS...
I AM NOT A SHEEP WAITING TO BE PRODDED BY MY SHEPHERD
I AM A LION....
AND, I REFUSE TO TALK....TO WALK....
....TO SLEEP WITH THE SHEEP....
THE SLAUGHTER HOUSE OF FAILURE IS NOT MY DESTING...
I WILL PERSIST UNTIL IN SUCCEED!!!!"

WHAT SAY??

Life's a journey!! WHAT SHIT!!-----
Destination Nowhere!! U R LOST LOSER!!----
What goody goody shit can people think n write...it amazes me sometimes n they also get admirers n comments!! Human behaviour is INDEED FUNNY!! ;)
I certainly dont believe in the gospel of enjoying the journey called life n the likewise shit.....which a lot of "ÇOMMOMERS" do....i believe they r just plainly bull shitting..the problem is we have a lot of FOLLOWERS so thats y we have losers with fan followings n comments on their blogs!! but there is a sad dearth of leaders to change peoples views....HUMAN!! WHAT SHIT HAS GOD CREATED!!
Cut to the original stuff...Life n JOURNEY....
THIS IS WHAT I THINK......
"Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways - Chardonnay in one hand - chocolate in the other - body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming : Woo Hoo, what a ride!"
THANKS NEEL I OWE THIS ONE TO YOU!! ;)

Obnoxious Insomnia!!

YOU NEVER KNEW ME!!!

Hey...was trying to sleep when this thought came to my mind and i just could not stop myself from posting it rite here ...right now!! I actually wrote this piece of shit a while ago...maybe somewhere around 6 years ago..not sure..back when i was in standard 11th and its funny that it is coming back to haunt me now!
LIFE's A GREAT GAME!! ;)

You never knew me,
You who knew me so well...
You who clould trace my smiles ;)
.....on a pillow or in your mind...
You who could identify my laughter..
Around the corners, up the stairs....
You who could feel my warmth....
.....on the coldest morning or hottest days ;
At your side.....,
.....or a hundred miles away.......
You who could feel my soft breadth....
.....in whispers on your neck....
The gentle caress of my hands.....;
The taunting giggle....the teasing talks.....the alluring smiling eyes....
You who tasted the tears.......
...............that only you could bring......
Because you knew me never....
You who knew me so well!!

But, still its going to take a lot more than this to kill me!
Johnny Walker----- "KEEP WALKING"!!! ;)

Love Sick!! n Love Sucks!! ;)

Hey..this one's for all you love stuck bastards who believe that they r very much in love(bloody emotional jack asses!!)....and for all who have loved n lost( Bingo!!.....thats the In-Fashion Category to be in these days afterall!!)...and ofcourse for all who have been Royally n Unceremoniously DUMPED!! by their so believed better"looking" halves!!!Yuck...makes me vomit n sick to my gut , each time I think abt "it" ..........
Am tired of Waving good-byes....singing those mushy love songs...smiling my gratitude and acknowledging the Not-so0-pleasent presence in public!! ITS SO AGAINST MY CONSTITUTION AFTERALL!! Y SHOULD I SPOIL IT!! AND FOR WHO MAY I ASK??!! .....for a Museum who has no emotions n just stands still with time...with lots n lots of memories....either good or bad....of battles won n lost.....of Love...regained n lost time n again...of love stories that are very very hard to believe coz you never see it happening to yourself...
How trivial could it be!!! ....coz emotions exist??...IS that what you say? FINE....Agreed n Accepted......but but but only in a Fool's Paradise!! PHEW>>>ENUFF of this shit yaar....hehehe:)

Its Finally time to BREAK FREE....to BE Liberal....N to REBEL!!!!! ;)
C ....I TOLD YA GUYS...SATAN STILL RULEZ!!

HERE IT GOES......

A MAD BOY'S LOVE SONG!!
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead;
i lift my lids and all is born again.
(i think i made you upin my head.)

The stars go waltzing out in blue and red,
And arbitary blackness gallops in;
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.

I dreamed that you bewitched me into love
And sung me moon-struck, kissed me quite insane,
(I think i made you up inside my head.)

God topples from the sky, hell's fires fade;
Exit seraphim and Satan's men:
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.

I fancied you'd return the way you said,
But i grow old and I forget your name.....
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

I should have loved a thunderbird instead;
Atleast when spring comes they roar back again.
I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.
(I think I made you up inside my head.)

The Twist Of LIfe n A Lone Survivor!!

Like the scream of the thousand anguished souls venting their hopeless rage on the everlasting fire below, the twisting torment shrieked acros the land...tearing....shredding....and dismembering everything in its relentless path.

A shifting snake-like column..like a vicious vortex moved on....

A hot sticky afternoon...large clouds gather and the thunder rumbles in the distance...rounded masses start to roll and twist...the whirl extends downwards....bright flashes of lightening light up the sky....a funnel stretches towards the Earth...a strange hissing sound joins the rumble and thunder...the funnel touches the ground...stirring up dust...debris....the leavings of a little loving populace......

At that moment no one is aware of the approaching evil...smoke rattles across the ominous landscape but no head turns in the direction of the oncoming devastation.....far behind the hissing becomes an ear-splitting roar. The twister swings towards a peaceful farm- instant chaos. Thw twister comingcaruning across the land like an avenging horde- Yes, Its power winds of 300 miles an hour or more....and thats no gentle breeze!

Glass shatters with explosive force..cars are hurled about like children toys...gas tanks explode and fires rage unchecked..panic is in the streets as the devils own whirling dervish- the frenzied funnel..wrecks havoc on the hapless town....

Dancing and skipping across the Earth..the storm leaves the town and is suddenly sucked up in the clouds and gone...survivors straggle out of remanants of buildings...dazed n shocked...but ready to START AGAIN!!!....for the Power of Nature is nothing compared to the Determination of the Human Spirit!!

Well...guys to cut a long n complicated story short....thats what I believe...NO MATTER HOW MUCH SHIT NATURE(OR GOD...FOR THAT MATTER) GIVES YOU...ITS BASICALLY LEFT TO US..IMMORTAL HUMANS...HOW N WHAT WE DECIDE AND MAKE OUR LIFE TO BE!!
TO FIND OUT A PERSONIFICATION OR A HIDDEN IDENTITY IN THIS STORY N CONNECT IT TO MYLIFE SHALL NOT BE A FUTILE ATTEMPT!.....

BASICALLY....FORGET GOD N WORSHIP SATAN!!! ;)

Figure This One Out!!!

Well..i really AM Damn Sure as to y my ASS is here....to vent out whtever rumbles thru this so called n never seen grey matter tht the top of my body is supposedly supposed to contain! aint it weird!!
Yah u guessed it rite..this is just to irritate u so called gud people... full of filthy advices which never work out!...n Lastly this is not for nebody to read...just some DARK CONFESSIONS OF THE TWISTED MIND!! and one more try to feel a little better after a whole lot of self- battering n non eating..(oops starving!!) days in a quest to survive thru the GAME CALLED LIFE!! specially after I REALISE ...my so called..... FAULT again n again n then Curse Myself to Glory n push n re-convince to Give up to Life once again!
Oh NO!! it WIL NOT be THAT easy to LOOSE THIS time Around...One more shot.....AT THE HIGHWAY TO HELL ...................Vroooooom.......!!
SATAN RULZ>>>>>HAHAHAHA!!!!!